I was going to write a post about how school is over now, but I realized that a month ago today was when I made my first blog post, which prompted a read-through of my own blog archive.
So in my first post I talked about my mother, and I came off as... very angry with her, which isn't fair, because she's really not a bad parent. We don't always get along because we don't have a lot in common, but I don't hate her or anything like that. She's not mean or abusive, she's just... pushy, I suppose.
I don't feel like making a long post right now, but I feel like I need to explain a little more about my relationship with my mother, so I'll explain in brief. My mother likes getting her way. She has a fixed picture of what the world is like, and reacts badly to having that picture challenged. I try to stay on her good side most of the time — fighting with her is pretty awful — but sometimes I get angry with her, and when I'm angry with her I tend to do stuff that'd piss her off if she knew about it. This is difficult to explain, but, for example, with this blog... I started it because I was annoyed with her and I heard her talking about how she can't stand bloggers. I guess this is just some form of low-risk defiance. It's not that I want anything to happen, it's that it's oddly satisfying to me to know that I'm not the person she thinks I am, and I don't have to be that person, either.
She's nosy, too. That's the other thing. Whenever she sees me typing blog posts on my laptop (thank God I have my own now; I used to have to borrow hers, and she could see my web history) she asks me what I'm writing. I've told her that I'm writing a story. She keeps pestering me for details about this story I say I'm writing; I usually just make up stuff on the fly, but she has a good memory, so I think that if this goes on much longer I'm going to have to come up with an actual story to tell her about when she asks.
I get along much better with my dad, because he's not nosy in the slightest. In fact, most of the time I think he could care less what I'm up to. He's the sort of person who's reserved normally, but can go on for hours about certain subjects (literature, mythology, and robots are his main three), so our conversations tend to be on those subjects. Sometimes I feel as though it's a bit over my head, and often I wish he'd keep his conversations brief, but at least he never tries to pry into my business.
Dad can be a bit tough to get along with during the school year, though. He's always on my case about homework. I've improved my work ethic thanks to him, but I'm still a procrastinator by default.
So, apart from my parents, my other main blogging topic has been Luna. I still don't feel as if I know the kid very well, but I'm actually glad I took the job. She's a bit strange, but a sweet kid, and watching movies with her is pretty fun.
I also mentioned Erin a week or so ago. She's graduating in two weeks! I'm really excited for her, and I'm going to go to her graduation. Hopefully. Provided I can get a ride.
In my first post I said I might post some art here. I haven't drawn much in the past month, but maybe I can draw something now that school's out. My tablet is broken but I'm better with pencil anyway.
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