Chatlog: Erin on Luna

I had a Skype conversation with Erin today! We haven't talked in weeks, so getting to talk to her was really exciting.

It was just a text conversation because she was busy. I often had to wait several minutes between her messages. However, we did get to talk for a while, so that was good.

At first we talked about her upcoming graduation. She's got her whole outfit picked out down to choice of makeup. I'm impressed, but not surprised. Erin always looks fantastic, even when she's just in jeans and a T-shirt (which is often).

The conversation eventually turned to what I was up to, and so I told her about Luna. I'll just copy and paste the chatlog:

(By the way, Erin is one of those people who's constantly changing her Skype name. Currently it's meant to resemble the word "erroneous".)

[6/19/12 5:08:00 PM] erineous: so anyway enough about me
[6/19/12 5:08:09 PM] erineous: what have you been doing lately~?
[6/19/12 5:08:37 PM] Jack Q: Oh, nothing much. The usual. Biking, avoiding my parents, etc
[6/19/12 5:09:04 PM] Jack Q: And I got a job.
[6/19/12 5:13:12 PM] erineous: really!
[6/19/12 5:13:20 PM] erineous: that's cool! doing what
[6/19/12 5:13:23 PM] erineous: ?
[6/19/12 5:14:19 PM] Jack Q: It's a little hard to explain.
[6/19/12 5:14:38 PM] Jack Q: Can I link you to my blog?
[6/19/12 5:18:56 PM] erineous: did you finally get a tumblr
[6/19/12 5:19:07 PM] erineous: or is this some other lame blogging service you're useing
[6/19/12 5:19:10 PM] erineous: using
[6/19/12 5:19:33 PM] Jack Q: It's Blogger, it isn't "lame".
[6/19/12 5:19:48 PM] Jack Q: The URL is trickyjack.blogspot.com
[6/19/12 5:23:01 PM] erineous: blogger is lame, my friend
[6/19/12 5:23:17 PM] erineous: la-la-la-la-laaaame
[6/19/12 5:23:23 PM] erineous: one day you will realize the error of your ways. and you'll think back on my words and weep in frustration because you didn't listen to me
[6/19/12 5:23:40 PM] erineous: "why didn't i heed her advice" you will say to yourself as you rock back and forth in your padded cell
[6/19/12 5:25:04 PM] Jack Q: Haha. Are you going to follow that link or what? ;)
[6/19/12 5:28:11 PM] erineous: all in due time
[6/19/12 5:28:21 PM] erineous: where do you suggest I start
[6/19/12 5:28:59 PM] Jack Q: Read the post where I talk about the housewarming "party" I went to. Back in May
[6/19/12 5:30:02 PM] erineous: found it
[6/19/12 5:30:18 PM] erineous: you sound pretty angry ahahaha
[6/19/12 5:30:24 PM] erineous: manhattanites don't have to wear business casual it isn't a rule or anything
[6/19/12 5:30:45 PM] Jack Q: You don't have to read it line-by-line :P
[6/19/12 5:31:05 PM] Jack Q: Just skip past the beginning part, the important part is near the end of the post
[6/19/12 5:33:57 PM] erineous: no omfg I want to read this
[6/19/12 5:34:30 PM] erineous: got your reference btw. alice in wonderland. nice.
[6/19/12 5:35:43 PM] erineous: you had a crush on the mom hahahaha im laughing
[6/19/12 5:36:12 PM] erineous: still laughing free range parenting it sounds like youre talking about chickens
[6/19/12 5:37:18 PM] Jack Q: Just skip to the end, that's what I wanted to talk to you about! XD
[6/19/12 5:37:29 PM] erineous: are there still splinters in your socks
[6/19/12 5:37:42 PM] erineous: no
[6/19/12 5:39:00 PM] erineous: i don't want to skip ahead
[6/19/12 5:41:23 PM] erineous: jack don't trust this mom as far as u can throw her she wants to switch bodies with u and make u be lunamom
[6/19/12 5:44:09 PM] erineous: look at how she didn't want to go fetch her kid she wanted to make u do it
[6/19/12 5:45:03 PM] erineous: calling it right now this woman does not like beign a mother
[6/19/12 5:46:41 PM] Jack Q: I was going to tell you to stop wasting time on random parts of the post but actually this is pretty funny. You might have a point about Donna. She's nice, though.
[6/19/12 5:47:53 PM] erineous: this aint a question of nice it's a question of why is she making you do her job
[6/19/12 5:48:19 PM] erineous: luna more like loony is this kid okay
[6/19/12 5:48:28 PM] erineous: seriously though, is she autistic or something? i dont' mean that in a bad way it just seems like maybe this extends beyond the normal range of children being weird
[6/19/12 5:48:44 PM] erineous: my friend has an autistic brother and he's just kind of strange when it comes to socializing with people maybe luna has something like that
[6/19/12 5:49:13 PM] erineous: asperger's actually, I think that's what you call mild autism
[6/19/12 5:49:20 PM] erineous: don't listen to me actually idk what im talking about
[6/19/12 5:50:04 PM] Jack Q: I guess it's possible? But at the time Luna was going through a lot. Moving was pretty rough on her.
[6/19/12 5:50:15 PM] Jack Q: She seems better now
[6/19/12 5:50:40 PM] erineous: yeah, "seems". key word
[6/19/12 5:51:06 PM] erineous: ...
[6/19/12 5:51:10 PM] erineous: .................
[6/19/12 5:51:22 PM] erineous: friend for hire
[6/19/12 5:51:28 PM] erineous: your new job is friend for hire
[6/19/12 5:51:39 PM] erineous: this is not an okay thing
[6/19/12 5:52:07 PM] erineous: like okay imagine if when we had to be buddies back in middle school you didn't know that I got assigned to be your buddy and you thought it was like a nromal friendship that just happened on its own
[6/19/12 5:52:15 PM] erineous: and then u found out
[6/19/12 5:52:40 PM] erineous: and u thought this was totally organic friendship at first like seriously man you'd feel betrayed
[6/19/12 5:53:03 PM] erineous: please tell me the twist is u got the hell out of that situation cuz this is some bad shit for real
[6/19/12 5:55:19 PM] Jack Q: No, hold up a minute. Listen.
[6/19/12 5:55:31 PM] Jack Q: I genuinely like this kid! I didn't at first but she's grown on me a lot. We're actually having fun together.
[6/19/12 5:56:08 PM] Jack Q: It's not like I'm faking the friendship. I'm just being paid to WATCH her. She doesn't need to know that, she'd feel like a baby if she knew.
[6/19/12 5:56:43 PM] erineous: no man you missed my entire point
[6/19/12 5:57:38 PM] erineous: the bad part of this is that the friendship began because you were paid to hang out with her. either you need to stop accepting payment or you need to come clean with her because no matter whether or not u like her there's no way she would take this well if she found out.
[6/19/12 5:37:57 PM] erineous: honesty is key to having a friendship and if you break a friend's trust they're gonna think twice about trusting you ever again. trust me on this bro
[6/19/12 5:38:20 PM] erineous: you gotta tell her. this has got to stop.
[6/19/12 5:39:40 PM] Jack Q: Okay, maybe I shouldn't have told you to start on that post, because even if it gives you the basic information I had a really negative outlook on the whole thing there.
[6/19/12 5:40:07 PM] Jack Q: It's a weird situation, I agree. But Luna and I really are bonding. And I don't want to risk the friendship over this. It isn't worth it.
[6/19/12 5:40:35 PM] Jack Q: I'll consider what you said about ceasing to accept payment for it, but I don't think I can tell her. What's done is done. She doesn't need to know.
[6/19/12 5:44:56 PM] erineous: its your judgement call not mine. but this seems like a bad idea. im just saying.
[6/19/12 5:45:30 PM] Jack Q: I'll consider what you said.
[6/19/12 5:48:19 PM] erineous: all I can ask for. thanks man.
[6/19/12 5:48:36 PM] erineous: good luck.

The conversation more or less died after that.

I've been thinking about what she said. I'm still not sure what I should do. I don't think it would go well if I told Luna about this — not to mention, I could lose my job over it — but if I continue not to tell her, am I just digging myself in deeper? I think I need to sleep on this and see if anything seems clearer tomorrow.