Erin

Seeing as how I have little else to talk about, I thought I'd write about my real best friend for a change.

I've mentioned previously that I'm homeschooled, but I wasn't always. I attended public school for all of elementary and part of middle. At my middle school, we had a "buddy system" where the sixth-graders were paired with eighth-graders who (in theory) could show them around, help them out, et cetera.

My eighth grade buddy was a girl named Erin, and she took her job as a buddy quite seriously. We didn't immediately hit it off, but she made sure to go out of her way to be nice to me and include me in her group of friends (most of whom I imagine thought I was a cute little kid or just plain annoying). Even after Erin graduated middle school and went on to ninth grade, she continued to check up on how I was doing in middle school. She really did try to make sure I came out the other side okay, and while she didn't succeed she certainly deserves commendation for her efforts.

Erin's a senior in high school now. We keep in touch, but rarely see each other in person (she moved to another town last year, and neither one of us has a driver's license, though I keep urging her to get hers). Most of my interactions with her are over Skype nowadays.

Erin is someone I truly admire as a person. She's smart and brave and never afraid to be herself. She's funny and honest and an incredibly sweet person at heart. I wish I could be more like her in some ways.

I do wish we could be closer friends, though. Not getting to see her often is a pain, and when we do talk she's always got other friends and other things to be doing. I don't want to seem jealous, because I'm really happy for her that she's got other people to talk to, but it cuts into our time together, which is already fairly minimal at this point.

Where am I going with all this? I'm not even sure. I've just been thinking about Erin today. We haven't talked in almost a month. I really miss her.